Monday, March 03, 2008

dream


I've been dreaming and planning about a new venture, probably beginning this summer, since I just don't have the time right now. I decided (FINALLY) after much flip-flopping and flopping back again, since last August, that I am done teaching elementary art. I will finish out this school year, and take a leap of faith. If I was still a single mom, this would really not be possible. I've cried my heart out to my husband more than a few times, and analyzed and re-analyzed all of the pros and cons. Of course the only con is money. But I've been thinking a lot about really being happy in this life, and that feeling of being truly fulfilled, and I decided at age 37, if I just keep doing what is expected of me, or what everyone else around me is doing, then I'm not really being true to myself, and what's the point of living if you're not really living?
Yes, there were many times over the last 9 years that I felt creative and challenged, and like I was really making a difference in kids' lives, but more often than not, all the little nuisances of being a traveling teacher, and not a 'classroom' teacher, just made me feel...less than. The way the system is set up, I just felt un-valued by many of my coworkers. My administrators never really made me feel that way, but they aren't the people that you have to deal with day to day.


So, I'm brainstorming the name of my new shop, which will be couture clothing for children, and some for women as well. The main focus at first though, will be over the top designer girls garments. Kind of like why I love decorating kids' rooms - you can be as extravagant and as dreamy and as 'fantasy' as you want to, you can go beyond the limits of what is 'normal' or 'ready to wear clothing. I've always had a fascination with tulle, so that will be a huge part of many of the designs, as well as buttons, ruffles, and many other embellishments. For some strange reason, the womens' designs that I've been dreaming up are mostly off white, sheer, raw edged- shabby, etc. Very different contrasts... but it is what it is.
Of course, deciduous soul will always (as far as I can foresee) be a huge part of what I do. It will be amazing to actually have the time to devote to it.
Thanks to all of my faithful customers, who have made this dream even possible. Look for some very unusual and interesting ideas coming soon...

2 comments:

the aesthetic onion said...

I am excited for you and looking forward to seeing your dream realized. I think it is a true testament to your dedication and great work that you have continued to make and sell this post-holiday season. Good luck, I know you'll be great.

jessica said...

Cool! I just quit my job to stay home and cook and clean and craft. My hubby loves that i'm so happy; it makes him happy! can't wait to see the clothes you will design!